I lost.
1. C
You said I mean nothing to you anymore. You said you could care less if we become friends again. You said everything’s going to have to be earned back. But it’s not like you gave me the chance. You shut me off just like that. I said I was sorry and you said it was okay but that didn’t change anything. After the long pause, you said that if I didn’t have anything left to say then I should leave. And I did. You didn’t stop me from walking away. Walking away from everything.
Everything.
2. G
I didn’t hurt you, I get it. But why did you wait until now to approach me? It should’ve given you the hint that I was scared. Think about it. Would you have the guts to act like as if nothing happened? Especially since you promised? Don’t think I didn’t try because I did. Yes, I really did but you didn’t react. That gave me the feeling that you weren’t ready to be friends right now. So I waited and waited. But nothing happened. And wait, you knew we weren’t getting anywhere. Why didn’t you make the first move? It doesn’t matter anymore because it’s all past now. We cut the connection between us.
3. E
Until the end, right? I know it isn’t something you can just forgive me for, isn’t something you can just forget, and it surely isn’t something time can just heal because what I did too much damage. I can’t take back all the lost time. We could’ve done something about it. We could’ve worked it out. But what happened? You gave up too quickly. Look where we are now. But maybe I’m getting this all wrong. Maybe you’re not really staying.
4. R
I have no words left for you. There’s really nothing left to say. I was true to you, true to us. Honestly, I had this talk with an old friend and it may not be the real reason. That really made me think that it all was just a big lie. So I thought that if it really was, I was going to have to really end things between us. I will have to completely kick you out of my life. No connections, no anything. Unfriended and blocked from everything. You won’t even see my face anywhere and I’d act like as if I never met you because I don’t think anyone could ever do that. Especially to someone close. Just know that I don’t blame you when I get asked about what happened. It’s crazy because I even defended you. Funny, don’t you think? But it’s not like it matters anymore. Everything’s over.
But look.
No matter what happened between us, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for all the memories. Thank you for coming into my life. Now everything’s all I could’ve, I would’ve, and I should’ve. But we can’t do anything about it anymore because it’s all done. I can’t say I’ve completely moved on but I am, slowly. By the end of 2013, I hope to let go of eveything that happened and finally start over. If you still want to be in my life, just let me know before the year ends or you will be nothing but just a memory to me. I’ll be here until then. But just in case you don’t come, I want to take this time to say my last goodbye.
